GreasyNerf

I just don't get it

Tue, 30 Aug 2005 21:02:57 GMT

Why is it that men, while normally not very social due to fears of homosexual perception decide that the one time to carry on conversations is in the men's room? (I will have more on this later)

How is it that our society (especially in the south) can condone violence, hunting, death, and other various acts of destruction, yet when a video game has SEX in it, this is something to fear? We have a pleasureable act that creates life versus a painful action that ends life... hm... I just don't get it.

How in the fuck does someone like Bush become, and STAY president?

And... ok, back to work... I will write more later.

I am like a ninja... except that I have no numbchuck skills

Wed, 24 Aug 2005 15:59:27 GMT

Does anyone out there still use this? Anyone reading this?

I'm thinking about picking up writing here again. Drop me a line if you even just viewed this as I don't want to waste my fingertips by typing to blank cyberspace.

Also, eat more puppies!

Bah!

Tue, 13 Jul 2004 12:35:17 GMT

Fuck this shit.

What shit you ask?

I'm glad you mentioned it. For just 19.99 you can have this shit... oh wait, nevermind, wrong thing.

I don't wanna work. Will someone go to work for me if I pout enough? Or even better will someone dance naked for me? That would make so much easier to take.

Thank you to all applicants, I will have your oatmeal and beef jerky ready at the door.

"Never take life seriously, no one gets out alive anyway"-Not sure who said it

You know...

Mon, 05 Jul 2004 09:20:03 GMT

No one ever responds to my journals... do so, or I will get you with tongs...

Hmmm..

Mon, 05 Jul 2004 09:13:05 GMT

I wanted to write something before bed, but you know, I'm too fucking tired. Maybe I should go to bed or something. I am bored, someone save me.

We have a streak going!

Tue, 22 Jun 2004 12:38:44 GMT

I decided to start writing more, for myself, even if no one reads, and the writing is nothing of import, so I have decided to try and update every day. I know I have tried this before, and it hasn't worked.

Not sure what to say this morning... I'm tired, it's Tuesday, I don't want to work, and I don't want to have to take a second job... oh well, such is life, right?

I had an interesting discussion this weekend with my best friend Lester. We were discussing the social implications of blacks in sports and their role in mass media. I think the biggest roadblock to equality of blacks is well, black people themselves. The funny thing is, he agrees. You mayask yourself, "why is this funny?" Well, perhaps funny is not the correct word. It's "interesting" because Lester himself is black. I'd get more into the entire discussion, but I have to run away to work now. If you have any thoughts on the matter, please drop a line or two and let me know what you think. I'll address this again later tonight or tomorrow, or in 2007 when I have time.

Havea great day everyone.

From the ashes I rise

Tue, 22 Jun 2004 02:21:27 GMT

Well what have we here? An update?!?!

I know it's been forever since I've updated, and I would apologize if anyone read my journal, but as it is... lick bakery!

I guess I should just give a quick update as to what has gone on in the last few months. The two happenings of most import are my situation with Autumn, and my employment situation.

I'm not going to really go into detail about my situation with Autumn other than to say breaking things off was one of the hardest things I've done. I wish I could say more, but this is personal between she and I, and I'm not going to air everything out. Let it be known though that she did nothing to cause this, and is an absolutely wonderful person, whom I still care about deeply.

As far as work goes, we are finally being merged with Travelers and St. Paul insurance, so as it is now stands, our fate is up in the air and we really have no idea what is going to happen. We had auditors in all last week, and they will be back on July 12th. The last thing I need to happen is to get laid off again. I am not looking forward to that prospect again. In case I lose my job, anyone have a couch or spare bedroom I can crash in? :)

I know, not really an exciting update, but hey, it's all I've got for now.

Well, off to the gym. I'm cutting down to between 1500 and 2000 calories and hoping to have a 6 pack in 3 months or so. I know, such vanity is disgusting, but... suck me.

Holy shit!!!

Sat, 13 Mar 2004 18:42:26 GMT

Today is the day... wish me luck and cross your fingers for me

Velcro, or a zipper for my ass crack?

Tue, 09 Mar 2004 04:50:58 GMT

Well well well, what have we here?

Yes, that's right kiddos, it's another always exciting Eric post. I know, you are all swooning like it's Beatlemania all over again. Don't worry, I will autograph all of your tits, and feel free to sling-shot your thongs my way...

Hmmm... what's the new update? Let's see here, let me see what the King of Cartoons has to say. Well, I will have my car in just a few weeks I think. Orange... mmmm it will be so me. I will actually have almost 4 grand to put down on it... thanks to totalling my poor black beauty. I had that car for 9 years, poor girl. Now I'm going to be in her hotter younger cousin.

In just 4 days and 21 hours, Autumn will finally be here!!! I can't believe this day has arrived. I feel like I've been waiting for this forever.

I have finally found someone that returns my love the way I give it. I didn't know a feeling like this existed, but now I do. I feel so wonderful inside. I'm really nervous though, I hope she isn't disappointed with me.

I'm getting dedicated again with the gym. I had kinda slacked off after my ex left, and battled a huge bout of depression, but I am now getting myself back in the shape I would like to be in.

I'm also thinking about getting some more ink done. My best friend Lester has been working on my new piece, so when he's done designing it, I'll get it done. When I can afford it and have the patience, I will either get my full back piece, or a piece that runs from my ankle all the way up my side over my shoulder. I know I know, a bit excessive, but if I were to die, at least I could say I did something else I wanted.

On that note, I have decided to live for tomorrow, not in the past. Although the past has made me who I am today, living for yesteryear is too painful. I have decided to concentrate on what the future has to offer, which will hopefully be happiness.

I know I know, you are all probably tired of reading about my ups and downs relationship wise, but that's what really means the most to me, which is why I write about that most often. Right now things are beyond good, they are wonderful. I truly hope everyone can find this feeling someday.

On that note, I think I am off to bed. I need to rest up for 48 hours with Autumn in my arms. Please, feel free to drop me a line anytime.

Home sick

Fri, 27 Feb 2004 21:17:41 GMT

Well, I took the day off of work, and I slept 15 hours last night, woke up for 2 and a half, and then slept again for another 3.

I'm glad I did because I feel much better now. Am I the only one that physically manifests their emotional woes?

Sick

Fri, 27 Feb 2004 01:28:50 GMT

I don't even know what to say here...

Why can't anything be easy? Why can't I find normality? I'm not talking basic or boring because I dont' think many would classify meas normal...

Why can't I find a simple, healthy relationship.

The only thing I do know at this point is that the love in my heart is undying, other than that, I don't know anything.

I just want it to be easy for once.

Monkey ninjas

Tue, 24 Feb 2004 13:07:26 GMT

Things are wonderful. I guess I'm back to my sporadic writing. Autumn finally got her dates to visit locked down, and got her plan ticket, so I am so very excited. in 18 short days, she will be here in my arms and I will be able to kiss and love on her for 48 hours non-stop.

Off to work...

More later.

Odd fact...

Thu, 19 Feb 2004 20:34:59 GMT

I was just looking at my name, and I realized my last name is only one letter off of "American" after it's rearranged.

in fact my name becomes "American Reck" when it's shifted. Weird stuff.

Oh, I also like head.

Thinking..

Thu, 19 Feb 2004 16:45:32 GMT

I was trying to figure out why I seem to write here more often than not when I'm feeling shitty about stuff. Then I realized... it's because I hate the internet. Well, not so much the internet, but the shit it brings with it through sites like this one and FTJ and the dilly, and all of those types of sites. When I'm in a good mood, I usually have nothing to say because my mind is free, and I have nothing weighing on my heart. Whenever I get pissed, or sad, or aggravated, I end up here. But what does that mean? It's not even really a release as I never feel better after I write here. It's not like I am here looking for advice since hardly anyone reads this, and even less comment. So why do I do it? Is it merely a distraction? I was thinking that, but focusing and writing about the shit that I want to be distracted from is hardly a distraction at all. Maybe I just thrive on negative energy and enjoy chaos. I hope that's not true. Perhaps I'll never know, just like how many licks it takes to get to the center of a toostie roll tootsie pop...

sigh

Thu, 19 Feb 2004 16:32:54 GMT

Sometimes I think I have ovaries...

does the pee pee dance

Sat, 14 Feb 2004 18:09:50 GMT

I have to fucking pee. Also, it snowed outside. The End.

I'm sorry, I will have to charge each and every one of you $5 for that news brief.

Wheeeee

Fri, 13 Feb 2004 20:17:35 GMT

I want to be an organ donor, so here, take my boner.

Fuck me I am witty.

Friday? Fuckin' A'!!!

Fri, 13 Feb 2004 15:56:31 GMT

Fuck me I am tired. I think I am going to sleep this entire weekend away. Ah, I love sleep. I love finally being calm and at peace and able to sleep. I remember not too long ago, and for several months, I was having to take sleeping pills every night. I love not having to now.

Well for the 3.14 of you that read my journal that know that I totalled my car last Monday, I found out I am getting $2300 on my car. Not bad considering that's about 2 grand more than I was expecting. I'm also getting over a grand back in taxes. What this all means is I will have 3 grand and then some to put down on my new car. I ordered it last Saturday. Go to www.scion.com and click on the orange bumper.

This also means one more thing... more ink!!! I finally have a little bit of extra money to get another tattoo. I have been wanting another one for so long, and now I can finally get another.... happy happy joy joy.

Anyone want to come play with my testicles?

Decision time!

Thu, 12 Feb 2004 15:08:17 GMT

Well, I have decided to let the past be the past and look forward to the future now. I don't want to dwell on the things because all that does is bring me down, so I am letting go. Last week, I responded to a friend's question as to what happened with Renee. I gave her a fairly concise accounting of what happened, but it was brought to my attention that it was a bit spiteful. I have since deleted it.

Renee, I offer you my apologies for making you seem like a bad person. I know you are not. I know you have things in your life to deal with. Unfortunately by the time I found all of this out, it was too late. You won't have to worry about my posts any longer, I am sorry.

Autumn, I am truly sorry that I have let my past effect my future. It's not fair to make you pay for what someone else did to me. I love you, and in that I will move forward with you and trust you implicitly. While I can't say that I have come through everthing unaffected, and yes, my level of trust is not what it used to be, I will do my best to be open minded, and I will not hold you accountable to what you did not do.

To the infinite masses that read my journal (4 people) I apologize for always writing about shit, rather than about the good in life. Life is much too short to always be pessimistic. Please, if you read my journal at all, let me know so I can add you as friends and can perhaps get to know you and read your journals as well.

That will be all for the moment I guess.

I hope everyone has a wonderful day, or at least I hope you don't all die in tragic bovine hurling accidents.

Thoughts for the day

Tue, 10 Feb 2004 18:58:54 GMT

Look at me go... my 3rd entry for the day!!! Usually it takes me like 2 months to get 3 entries.

I guess I would probably get more responses if I commented on other people's journals...

Random thoughts that I've been thinking... I mean, they are thoughts, isn't it already implied that I was thinking them, what else could I do, butter them? Random thoughts I've been buttering? Well, I guess I could try that too.

Thoughts:

I like big butts and I cannot lie... wait... nevermind, those are song lyrics.

OK, here we go...

95% or the populace in southern California have all slept with each other. There is a small group of "FTJers" and I think they have all slept with the same people and then swapped... it's like musical chairs but with cocks and cunts... I just like saying those words.

I have only met one person from FTJ, and I dated her for almost 2 years.

Online people seem to have no concept of reality... if you're reading this, you are most likely one of those people, and I find that with every word I type, I am becomming more like you.

The Dangerous Lives of Alter Boys was a great movie. So is Boondock Saints. I think I'll finish watching it tonight.

I really don't want to work another job because work is no fun.

I wonder how many people with a predominant online presence are actually honest. I mean, there is so much you can do or say that no one would ever find out. I mean, if you were married, you could have on-line relationships, meet, and fuck, and no one would be the wiser. I think this is more common than people want to admit.

I now eat an orange every day.

There aren't enough black people in rock music anymore... where did all the Jimmys and Lennys go? Oh where have you gone Living Colour and Fishbone?

My friend Jared is in India getting married, and he has to weat a turban. If you knew him you would find it funny. His head is well... big.

I really want some more tattoos, but right now all of my money is going toward my new car and spending time with Autumn.

Labret piercing: yay or nay?

I wonder if I will die tomorrow, although this isn't really a thought for today, it's more a thought for every day.

I have stopped working out again and become lazy, and I hate the way I feel because of it.

My bladder is full, and I must urinate.

I masturbate a lot.

One of the best lines from a song, "I come into your house, make love to your spouse, fuck her in the mouth, and I'm out."

I want to bathe in liquid paper.

On that note, I guess I should get back to work.

Make it hurry!!!

Tue, 10 Feb 2004 16:33:28 GMT

17 days!!! Can anyone fast forward time for me? Please?

I have a penis

Tue, 10 Feb 2004 15:25:26 GMT

Well, once again I'm writing. I think an occurrence like this happens once or twice a month, much like a vernal equinox.

Well, what do I say? I was supposed to just be home from Vegas, but well, I didn't go. I feel bad for being so selfish because I wanted this more than anything, but Autumn couldn't go because her Grandmother was in the hospital. I feel like such a prick for being selfish.

Last Monday was really... interesting to say the least. In the morning, I found out that my best friend Lester's cousin was found dead in Houston. Her brother had been beaten by the police on at least 3 separate occasions, and she was working on trying to find a way to rectify the situation. Lester didn't give me any details, and I didn't ask because I figure he'll tell me when he's ready, but I can't hep but wonder if the two events are tied together. Then on my way home, during rush hour, I totalled my car. There was a group of 3 or 4 cars that instead of yielding to an off ramp, decided it would be better to slam on their brakes. I did the same, but unfortunately my car is not built for, well, anything good. Oh a sliding we will go, a sliding we will go!!! Yeah, I skidded into the car in front of me, which happened to be an SUV. Well it totalled my car. Yay. Then I got home, left a brief away message on AIM about my plight, and then Autumn calls to make sure I'm OK, which I was, and then proceeds to tell me that she won't be able to make it to Vegas because she has to fly to Arizona to help her mom take care of her grandmother. What a wonderful day it was... yay, sense the enthusiasm?

On the bright side of things, Autumn's grandmother is recovering, so that is wonderful. She is coming on the 27th of February for the weekend, so it will be the best time ever. We have rescheduled Vegas for April 22nd - April 27th. yaaaaaaaaay!!! More good news is that I got over 2 grand for my old piece of crap car that I get to apply to my new car that I ordered on Saturday... yeah it's bright orange!!! YAY for orange!!! I rule!!!

So with all of that going on I still have to say. Yay for life. Yay for Autumn. Yay for us. I am truly happy for the first time in a long time. I have missed this feeling.

Also, I want to be a fire engine when I grow up.

I want this more than anything in life, I will work for it, the end.

Drive by update

Thu, 29 Jan 2004 21:57:11 GMT

Well, the entry that has been up for awhile now is very far out of date. Things are fine with Autumn and I. In fact, things are better than fine, they are wonderful.

I guess I would like to ask everyone that reads my journal, which may be 3 people total, for what they want. Would you rather I do more fun writing, like how the Sumrfs are the embodiment of all that is wrong with our society, or more updates on personal life and such?

Or if you don't care at all you can watch me have sex with various pieces of produce.

Any input would be much appreciated.

Ahhhhhh

Fri, 09 Jan 2004 03:24:36 GMT

Yeah, same ol' song and dance...

Oh how things change yet stay the same.

Bah, blah, whatever, and all that fucking shit that comes along with it all.

Gone.

ATTENTION!!!

Fri, 26 Dec 2003 22:56:50 GMT

OK, there is this extremely special woman, and she has been occupying all of my thoughts as of late. This entry does not do her justice, but I will write a better one after my nap.

*siiiiiiiiiigh*

Love always for my sweet Autumn.